Keeping it Strong

With State Convention the week before and then headed to Tampico that weekend I did horrible with food and exercising. I have learned though who is around reflects on how well you will do, and the people I was around 2 weeks ago were no help for me to maintain my diet and exercise. Tampico was fun and hot I think I might have sweated everything I ate. I did good on drinking pop, but of course in southern indiana there is always alcohol to be drank. I indulged my self of course along with the Tampico fire department 's imfamous fish sandwhiches. I did badly Friday night probably had 5 fried fish sandwhiches. I was impressed my stomach handled them so well due it hating fried anything. Was still bad choices and no mental control, and I have concluded that when you drink it has the same affect as mary jane, I wouldn't know personally just from watching tv shows that perceive it that way, I always want to eat! I felt like last week I was starting over again, which is my own fault. Last week I did amazing!!! I worked out on my elliptical because it was just too freaking hot to walk outside. I worked out at least a half hour everyday except for Wednesday. I did well on my calories staying between 1500-1700 calories a day. I need to start working better on them due to eating more calories but after you take away calories burned working out comes to 1500-1700. Which in reality gets me no where. I have taken the slim fast approach which has always worked for me in the past. I drink one for breakfast and dinner, and now that the BF will be coming home at night more often and not at my parents house I can make a sensible low calorie meal and not be eating there all the time. You would think with my dad being diabetic since I was in middle school we'd all be scrawny shits!!! We were raised on skim milk, fat free everything, and basically sugar free or mom puts in splenda instead. As I come to realize it all about portion size, and we allen's just love our food. I am hoping for better results this week!!! I am starting to think my scales doesn't work because it has been stuck on 260 forever!!! Which has always been where I could get to, but never passed before. I am bound and determine to get past it!!! On a positive note my clothes are fitting better, my tight jeans I can button standing up now! Still got my tire going on but I look at that as a positive since the scales isn't creeping down. Now I have concluded I need to buy a measuring tape and start measuring my waist and such, and watch the numbers go down from there as well. Here is to keeping it strong!!

Rough Couple of Days

Well it has been a difficult week. The FFA had to cook a pork loin dinner for Case Planting Days, and oh boy was that tough. The menu consisted of Pork loin sandwhich(with special marinate), potato salad, chips, rosy applesauce, chocolate chip cookie or sugar cookie. I will mention that the cookies were homemade by my mom and I, and I am guility of practicing quality control by tasting the batter. I just couldn't resist it. If you notice the picture of the sugar cookies they are pretty bad ass. Anyways that was a rough day on the calories and I didn't get my walk in either or Tuesday due to prepping for the event. We will see what the rest of the week brings.

Day 1 and Goal 1

Yesterday started off as a good day. Got up popped my metabolism butt kicking pill and harnessed Levi up for our walk of 4 miles. I live near Adams Lake and yesterday I decided to try a different way then normal. Instead of turning to go towards the Pub I went straight Levi and I are walking do to do and I about crapped at all the fancy smancy houses. Apparently I was walking on the wrong side of the Lake. We continue our way around Levi panting me gauching at each house. Thinking I want that one and I want that and I want that one. All in all it was a good walk and interesting to see the variety of houses. Then came the afternoon when I had to graduation party to go to. Before that was graduation. I laid out my close took a shower then Levi decided to pull a Beethoven move and trash them. Then I ended up in a pair of jeans and this baish sleeveless top. Needless to say I am slightly conservative. I don't like the girls out to play, and I rather be a t-shirt. Always been a t-shirt girl. As I got into my truck driving along to the school I felt like a whore in church. What I was wearing just made me uncomfortable as all get out. I got to school and I walked into the gym and I didn't feel as bad because there some moms that should not have been wearing what they were. I know thats mean, but I am fat and I can say that. I didn't feel as bad after that. Then came the graduation party. I did well had small servings of mashed potatoes, corn, cole slaw, potato salad, 2 slices of pork loin, and half a piece of chocolate cheesecake. The kicker was on the way home with bf and we stop at DQ. I will tell you this my biggest weakness is ice cream oh dear lord I couldn't resist. One order of small cookie dough blizzard, which I didn't think was bad because normaly get this chocolate lover thing. Well got home added up my calories thought I was doing good and bam that damn blizzard blew it all to hell. Its amazing how one thing can screw you up. Today I will be better!!!  I ended the day with total of 2345 calories burned 518 and netted 1827..No blizzard today!!!

I have set some goal for myself I would like to loose 5 pounds by June 25th. If I do make that mark then I will reward myself with one of these pair of shoes. None of them really stick out to me that I like, but I am picky person when it comes to shoes and clothes. Let me know which one you like.

As for a medium goal I want to weigh 245lbs by July 30th and long term I want to weigh 230lbs before school starts.

Casual

Red Nike

Purdue Nike

Setting Goals and Making waves

For the past 2 years all I have done was gain weight. It seemed no matter how hard I tried I could never lose more than 10 pounds or watch the scale increase. I absolutely hated the scales, and I was becoming one of those people that all I wanted to do was wear sweatpants and basketball shirts with a big baggy sweatshirt to hide it. When in reality that wasn't too flattering either. Through college I was always the girl in jeans no matter what. I loved wearing jeans, but now I despise them. I despised shopping for clothes at all costs, and now I currently only own 2 pairs of jeans and 1 pair of dress pants. I am a teacher and what I teach doesn't always require a pair of dress pants thank god otherwise I'd be up a creek without a paddle. I get to wear my dress pants for one day and 2 days worth of jeans, but it never failed I hated putting them on. I decided I should have become a gym teacher so that I could just stick to my sweats and basketball shorts. That mindset all changed 6 months ago when I found out that my thyroid was underactive, and the number work like golf the higher the number the more underactive your thyroid is. A normal range is 0-5 mine was at a 15, just a little underactive, HA! So made a doctor's appointment and away we went through the procedures of finding out I had a lump on one of my thyroid glads. Back it up for a second as well. Thyroid gland is basically your control box next to your brain. It helps with metabolism mainly,but also lots of other things. One of the things the doc said was if your more irritable boy did my family jump on that one. Apparently I had been a complete female dog the last year and half. Note to self if you are feeling fatigued and cranky that might be a possibility. Coming back to speed the doc put me on medicine, and it takes a month to really notice any changes or to be able to check the level in your blood as well. At that point I was taking pills and then we had to do a biopsy. Which I may note I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY HATE NEEDLES!!! So we go into the doc's office to get this bad boy done, and he tells me he has to insert 4 needles into my neck. I bet my eyes were the size of silver dollars, and think I about passed out as well. So I am sitting in this dentist type chair and he "numbs" the area, I use the numb word lightly, and bam without warning stabs me with this needle. I am trying not to move trying not cry doing all I can not to grab this guy by the balls and tell him to give me more pain medicine or he is going to wish he had. Then bam another needle then another, if this is what acupuncture is like bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep that crap. When it was all said and done my mother was laughing and holding my hand so I would denut the dr. from being so mean during the process. Got the results back in a week and they couldn't tell if there was cancer. Options were surgery remove and have a wonderful christmas break or Option 2 wait spend more money have this idiot stab me in the neck again as if I was a frog in biology class. MMMMMM surgery means I will be knocked good pain meds welll DING DING DING we have a winner Option 1 it is. Had surgery on December 20th to remove my thyroid came back negative for cancer, WHOOP WHOOP!!! Go back have more blood work done to see my thyroid level now and what the heck its at a freaking 42!!!!!! Apparently we took out the good thyroid. After a month of working out everyday and seeing no change, and then seeing that my other thyroid was being a pussy just ticked me off. Now almost 5 months later with my medications right. I am attacking this fat build up on my body. I have gained 75 pounds in the last year and half, and my goal is to lose all of it. I have lost 15 pounds since March, now I weigh in at 260 pounds. I have 60 more pounds to loose, Now some people might think 200 pounds is still heavy. Well I am 5 foot 11 inches tall and a very broad shoulder young lady. I am just not meant to be 150 pounds, and to be honest if I did weigh that I would look sickly. Besides I can't remember the last time I weighed 150 pounds like middle school probably. I am starting this blog to help me eat better exercise more, and just force myself to wear jeans again. I apologize ahead of time for my randomness, probably some cussing, and anything else I might offend you with, but in all reality I am probably not sorry due to it just being me!!! Here goes the adventure of Fat Farmgirl to Skinny Farmgirl BOOO YA!

June 10 260lbs